What are you not praying and what are you not saying because of fear? Fear is a tactic of the enemy to keep you small-minded and limited in prayer. What would happen if you truly died to self? What would happen if when you opened your mouth unto the Lord and said “Not my will, but thy will be done,” without any “only ifs?” Only-ifs are conditions and stipulations, things that we don’t want to happen. I can admit, when I have prayed this prayer my mouth said “Thy will be done,” but my heart said, only if….
- I can stay in my comfort zone
- I don’t have to be in weird situations
- I don’t have to make any changes in me…if only I don’t have to change…
Wow, then that is not really wanting His will done. That is still me wanting my will done. That is me wanting God and the blessings of God the way I think is should occur or happen–ON MY TERMS. It is putting God in a box and handcuffing Him.
When I realized what I was saying, I was humbled and ashamed. The God who has kept me from danger seen and unseen more times than I can imagine–I didn’t trust Him. The God who has kept my children–I didn’t trust Him. No matter how much you want to pretty it up and make it sound “not too bad,” there it was–the ugly truth. I did not trust the Lord completely. So I had to make a stand and a decision–do I trust Him even when I am afraid? The answer was and still is emphatically yes!! Faith is moving toward the Lord in spite of, not in the absence of, your fear. Saying “Thy will be done” and truly meaning it with everything in me no matter how it looks gave me freedom, true freedom.
Don’t you want to be free? It’s ok to be scared and a little shaky AND don’t let fear keep you from having a closer walk with your king–the King.
Prayer Warrior 